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What feels like a lifetime ago, I was drenched with tears from sobbing in the shower. I had sat down to let the water hit my back as I hugged my knees in tight, I remember my entire body aching. You were standing there right next to me, with that look of confusion and concern, as I was desperately trying to let you know what I needed and why I was hurting. I was trying to communicate. I knew how pathetic I probably looked though, I was a puddle of what felt like more tears than shower water. Looking back it was probably the moment I needed you the most. Actually it definitely was. I knew it was a little silly but I didn’t think you’d actually say no. When I finally choked out the words to tell you that what I needed right in that moment to feel whole was for you to get in the shower with and hold me, hug me, be there for me... you actually said no because it looked depressing. In that moment my heart sunk and drifted away to what had to be drain all the way at the other end of the tub. I WAS depressed, and sure it probably would’ve made a mess or got your clothes wet, but my heart would’ve have been held. At least for a moment or until I had the strength to pick it back up by myself and get up out of the hurt I was sitting in.
I did end up picking myself up again. I started to heal and get stronger to hold myself together. I know it happened the way it did for a reason and I think I actually needed an opportunity to hug myself and feel what it’s like to be there for myself, but damn it did that hurt.
The point is being there for someone by extending a hug is absolutely free and if someone tells you they seriously NEED a hug you better fucking give it to them.
Show up.
Even if it’s showing up for yourself 🧜🏽‍♀️
A memory from another life time. Releasing, forgiving, healing 🌻 def not trying to trigger or make anyone sad by sharing this, only wanted to share my - no rainbows without a little rain story :) ☔️ 🌈 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
• I invite you to share a memory you recall where you really needed something but we’re forced to show up for yourself. How did it feel? What did you learn? How did you grow from that experience? #selflove
PC @lizzyfreetobe

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Getting bendy on da canes in some light rain as the sun sets 🌈 practicing for more hand to hand jumps in acroyoga and maybe to enter a circus 🧝🏽‍♀️ 🎠 🎡 jk.. maybe
Anyway, happy hump day! Hope you did some back bending and playing today and if not I hope you make some time tomorrow! 🐫 #practiceandalliscoming song is my acoustic version of Dock of The Bay by Otis Redding 🙌🏽 COMMON Q&A - i have a background of nothing, i was a malleable mushy potato with bones till i found yoga 5 years ago.
i hiked every once in a while, got into climbing 2 years ago and this is where i’m at in my practice now.
No former training or strength, but i am
i guess more “naturally” flexible than average
but this is from
5 years of
C o n s i s t e n c y
Wearing all @aloyoga

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Um so support straps on your feet changes things 🔥🙌🏽 especially when doing pull ups next to this guy 🙊
I’m posting this to remind myself of some goals we have, and to hold myself accountable to them ♥️ we’re training and getting our heart rate up every day to be able to hike Longs Peak which is a 15 mile hike that climbs to 14,200 ft elevation 😅
Thanks for pushing me in climbing and hiking and for putting up with me pushing you in yoga and acro 🙌🏽 I like you 😉 @mynameiscub can’t wait for Hawaii in a few weeks 🍉 I’m singing You Got Me by Colbie Caillat

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I find myself going back and forth between self love and struggle - I don’t always find beauty or peace in my body, my only home. I am so thankful for the days that I do though. For the times I forget what it’s even like to feel myself tear me apart because of my own shit because it’s been so long on a wave of acceptance and love. I love when I go through those growth spurts, but growth happens in rain and also can be painful, like growing pains. I am extremely lucky to have so many empowering women in my life, reflecting back to me and helping me grow on my own path. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I’ve seen a few posts sharing to the women that intimidate us from @gypsyon__ & @aubrymarie 🔥 I think if we open up to it, these women can be are our greatest teachers, these women I hold dearest to my heart for helping me realize my own strengths and weaknesses. I definitely want to share a post with more words for each of the women on social media specifically that have opened my eyes. For now, here’s some thoughts I had today - ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Third person judgements are first person reflections dressed in a disguise of fear and rejection. Perceptions in our outside world and of the ones around us can change when we let fear take over our greatness. Once we accept and live in our own truth everything else becomes that much clearer.
Pc @lizzyfreetobe

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So we saw this gorgeous partner pose on @dylanwerneryoga ‘s page & decided to give it a go 🌈 🌻
We found an awesome patch of sun flowers to explore through and play in. When we were getting into it there was a lady that took me by surprise saying “hey” to her dog, only I didn’t see the dog and I immediately got embarrassed and this is what I played in my head “hey” “hey you kids in the bushes, I can see you” 🙈 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Yes I’m aware of how silly we looked while getting into and out of this pose 😹
I had a good laugh and if you want a little chuckle swipe to see a perfect capture of the face I make when I finally get a dirty joke 🙊 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Don’t take yourself too seriously and also let go of what others think of you or how you look :) Both in @aloyoga 🌻 xo @mynameiscub thanks for always trying new things with me!

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Love, especially when its hard, you need to feed the inner flame inside that belly. Your soul has made a promise with your heart, to be all that you are in every instance and never to be less.
⠀ Anything less than your wild fire is not you, it’s watered down you. Less than you will only weaken your flame, you’ll just flicker, and you’re kidding yourself if you think you won’t burn out after you’ve smothered yourself to be smaller and colder for others. 🔥
Wild fire over Controlled fire
Some writings from my journal 📓
Happy Monday loves!
Wearing all @aloyoga

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Concentrating hard to manifest my fairy wings into existence 🧚🏼‍♀️ Also it was a little windy and the waves were throwing of my drishti 🙈
So much thanks to those of you who called and messaged me about my account last night. Tthere was a glitch in my insta app but I totally thought it had to do with my other account being deleted 😅 today is a new day and it feels facking great! Love you!!! @lizzyfreetobe behind the camera encouraging me to embrace the fairy life ;)

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Lately I’ve talked a lot about bullies, sexual harassment and social injustices on here. Sometimes it can feel a bit exhausting sticking up to myself and for others especially when most people probably just want to hear only good and the happy things. I get it. No one wants to feel pain or deal with hard shit. Or have to stand up again and again sometimes even making the same points as before. But it keeps happening, so I have to keep using my voice. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Today I just wanted to use my voice to let you all know I appreciate and love the heck outta ya. For sharing your voice with me, for waking up, choosing love and shining your brightest each day! For taking no shit and demanding more from your life and fellow humans in it ♥️ I seriously couldn’t be more happy with the community we’ve made together 👁🌱🌙 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Ps a while ago I said I’d make a thing on one of these topics I’ve been covering. Well, it’s made @online.sexual.harassers x just kidding insta took it down even though it was censored. But @rio.marty still has his account even though he was the one who sent the harassing images and messages that were covered. Those of you who have messaged me to add people to the list of online predators and harassers, it’s going to have to wait till I find a better, fool proof way of doing this. Bleh ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Wearing all @aloyoga :) x song is my acoustic cover of black widow 🎵

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I remember in 8th grade a boy untied my shirt from the back while walking to class from lunch. There was a huge crowd all of us going to our lockers before the bell rang. His friend said, - don’t bother there’s nothing there. Both laughing with one another at their jokes about my adolescent non boobs. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I had one of those cute tops on that had a tie around the mid waist. Accentuating my teenage padded and stuffed bra area. It was hard enough as it was growing up in the Mormon church, being called big bird because of my nose by that same group of boys, let alone the trying to resist the huge urge to change my body as soon as I could. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Nose job was first on the list then I wanted to have boobs to feel like I was “attractive” All of that was for outside reasons, for outside approval and acceptance. It wasn’t until about 4 years ago that I started turning inward and listening to my heart. It was when I was about 21 that I started feeling my feminine energy rise. 21 years till I was able to find beauty in my own skin, to feel safe in my own body. Years of learning some people are just mean and hateful, with an inability to open their minds to the many forms of beauty. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Finally realizing some people will only ever see ugly when they look at me, or choose to sexualize me when I express myself in photography or art. We are mirrors, we reflect everything. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Don’t take it personal when someone can’t see you for all that you are, or are unwilling to see past what they were taught to look for. Try turning inward when you don’t feel adequate, look inside and realize you’re everything, you’re all you need to be and you are loved, fruitful, pure and absolutely beautiful inside and out.
Pc my love @mynameiscub

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Better make sure your dreams & aspirations are actually yours. Someone’s expectation of you or your superimposed idea of what life should be like should not take precedence. You are what’s important. Your blissful happiness and sanity will bless and thank you for following your heart 🌻 ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
All Kauai creatives 👁 I’m headed home for my birthday 9/6 - 9/10🧜🏽‍♀️ message me to do a meet up, hike, collaborate and connect 🌙 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Allllso just posted a Shoulder Opening Flow to my YOUTUBE 👋🏽
Trying to handstand like @sjanaelise in @goddess_swimwear

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Darkness is a gift. One that you will unwrap minutes, years or entire lifetimes later. Sit with it, sit it in it. Listen. Let it teach you everything it knows and only then will it show you a light brighter than you have ever seen before 👁 🌙 words from my beautiful friend @mil aela.alice
So many things went into the experience of this photo shoot. Trust, acceptance, empowerment and space to allow myself to unravel 🌈 provided by the wonderful soul behind the camera @lizzyfreetobe 👑 also super inspired by the queens of magic that inspired this - @gypsetgoddess & @chelseasflowercrowns

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I have all that I need, I AM all that I need. 🐞
Give your body some love today 🙌🏽 when was the last time you did something just for you? Really though.

Song is my acoustic cover of Sure Thing by @miguel 👁
Rue and @mynameiscub keeping me company and doing their own practice, Colin sketching and Rue left to go fairs the back porch from the squirrel army 🤗

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