Hey beauties!! Here is my new home on wheels and I! Still searching for a name for the vanette! We’ve had some interesting times in the first 5 days together. Christchurch, New Brighton, Okaines Bay, Akaroa, now Ashburton, headed down the East coast of the South island 🤙🏽 The first few nights were some of the hardest i have ever had. Feeling lonely and confused and unsure of my purpose and what i wanted now that i am actually HERE.. had some not so fun hickups with the van’s plumbing (SOS)
But I am extremely in love with the simple way of living the van has gifted me. I’m currently reading Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, and he says that the Pain-Body surfaces in times where past-trauma is reactivated - for lack of a better word. And mine comes forward in lonely times. How interesting that i take off on an adventure across the world - ALONE - it’s as if a deeper knowing in my heart knew i had to blast through this in order to grow further in this life.
I dont know how i never expect it, i always forget, blindly feeling my way around...
To break free it means we are breaking through the barriers to open space for new things. How could that possibly be a comforting, warm, easy place to find ourselves in?
Im grateful for the lessons learned, the tears that came and went. I accept them all and for each of their purpose.
Because i feel so much stronger having found myself where i am this morning. Present.
It is so hard to accept at first and then suddenly we free ourselves from the labeling or the need to be anything certain. Instead we just choose what works best for us. We choose our very own way.
There is so much to be grateful for 🦋
Breakdown brings Breakthrough ⚡️
Onward + Upward!!
HURRAY for GROWTH + #VANLIFE !!